A bit of a self confidence boost...

I have been on a diet for quite some time. But then, haven't we all? I got down to one weight and I have been stuck at it for a long time. About 6 months without budging. And lately I have wondered if this is the size I am meant to be. I am not drastically overweight. If I told you my weight you might gasp but I am just a couple of inches shy of 6 ft tall. And I used to deliver auto parts which gave me a lot of muscle mass. When I swim in the summer I slim down two sizes in about a month but my weight doesn't change. We've calibrated our scale against the one at the doctor's office and it's reading right. And the doctor is somewhat stunned that my cholesterol (LDL) went down 210 points just with diet alone. lol

So all of this got me thinking. Why am I doing all of this? I have a healthy diet now. I have gotten rid of the wheat products that have been hurting me for so many years. I eat good meats, seafood and lots of veggies. Get this, I even like green beans now. Go figure! I've hated them all of my life but now that all of the sugars are gone from my diet I actually like green beans. I actually have to make lots extra or DH and I end up in a tug of war over the last of the green beans. lol

Anyway, the only reason now for me to be on a diet is to maintain what I have. If I try really hard to lose anymore I get weak and I think it's from muscle loss and I don't want to lose muscle.

I am never going to be the size I was when I was 19. I'm headed to my late 40's now and trying to reach anything that I had when I was 19 is completely unrealistic.

So I sat down and decided that I like me just the way that I am. And I am not going to continue to make myself miserable trying to reach a goal that someone else thinks I should reach. The doctor thinks I should weigh 120 pounds. I don't think so. I really would be scrawny and anorexic looking considering my height. And getting there would make everyone around me miserable. And it would make me miserable. I didn't spend 6 years of my life building and toning muscles just so I could diet them all away when I got old. Now is when I need those muscles the most, right?

So how do you like my "I Like Me" layout? I thought it says exactly what I wanted to say about me. And that is my most recent skinny pic of me in the red top and jeans. I think I'll stay right here and be a happy mommy for my little girl. And we'll just follow our main food rule from now on. Eat when you're hungry, Stop when you're full.